What is going on in this picture??
A. The Texas Governor's Mansion is on fire AGAIN?
B. One of the new vacant hi-rise condo buildings in downtown Austin exploded?
C. Whole Foods Market has a glow of more profit? (or is it just a natural glow from all of the vitamins and supplements?)
D. The UT Campus is taking that whole "burnt orange" thing to another level?
E. All of the hippies in town for the Austin City Limits Music Festival are blazing the world's largest joint?
F. Carrie took a horribly dangerous photo of a soul-stirring sunrise while driving north on the Mopac Bridge in traffic?
For all of the glory that is the iPhone, this pic doesn't even come close to conveying what was the most glorious sunrise today over Austin. I was on my way home from the pool and wanted to stop, get out of the car, and just stare.
Over the last few weeks, I've been struggling with gratitude. That, in and of itself, is frustrating because if we're not functioning from an "attitude of gratitude," then we are nothing but shameful complainers. I've found so many things to mindlessly bitch about lately: my job is way too busy and petty, I'm eating and drinking too much, my training is mediocre, our economy sucks, my relatives are ill, my good buddy passed away, and did I mention I hate my job these days?? I've felt a tightness and anxiety in my chest because I've been so...ummmm...uptight lately. Even when when I rationally know I'm being irrational, I still can't help it. Weird... And it's not PMS (not this week, at least).
And then I saw THAT sunrise today. It was like a bolt of electricty ran through my body and I instantly felt at peace with everything. My difficult situations are still there, but I feel like I at least have control of them instead of my recent "out of control" and "I'll never catch up" feelings.
...and for that...I'm VERY GRATEFUL.
(and happy that I didn't run my car off the bridge while taking this pic)